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Mini comics!

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 20:34:18 GMT

mini comics I did for the comicon.

Fellowship: Hip Fellows

Fri, 24 Mar 2006 18:03:29 GMT

Art Update! Here's a comic I did for an artbook called Fellowship: Hip Fellows. It's a book composed of artwork from several animation students under the topic of relationship. The purpose of it is to raise money for the "Send a student to the Ottawa International Animation Festival 2006 Fund", and so far they're selling pretty well. Let me know if you're interested in a copy (or 2 =P).

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 03:10:40 GMT

livejournal! Long time no see old friend

(just updating all the cool things that weren't available before =P)

Tue, 27 Jan 2004 05:13:44 GMT

Artists are those who think outside of the box, innovate… push from conforming to the norm. Artists and creativity. I find that Emily carr is interested in producing artists, meaning breaking free from conformity. To restrict the acceptance of students based on gpa is limiting the student body to mostly those of high academic standing as opposed to artistic insight.

Wed, 09 Jul 2003 00:43:07 GMT

I need to work on the comic book. Action must be taken! Dont ask me to do anything, because I'll be obliged to decline. Sorry.

EXCEL erate your breathe

Mon, 30 Jun 2003 16:11:49 GMT

jerry introduced me to this company called excel a couple days ago. It's sort of like a pyramid scam, but then it sounds really good! I wouldn't mind getting into it for the money (become a millionaire in just a couple years? that doesn't sound too bad at all). Well, I didn't want to just jump right into it, because normally I can be easily manipulated, and sway all the time. Thinking that Wei would have an interest in this kind of thing, I asked if he wanted to sit through a presentation, so that I could get other opinions on it. Anyways, it started out that he was tending towards no, but after the presentation, he joined right away. So I duno.. I think I'll join up in a couple months or something. I also want to see what Simon thinks about it. If he joins up, then I guess I'll know what to do next.
Yesterday was kind of hectic. It was my dad's bday. Woke up early to help him out at the house. WE both kind of slacked off at the beginning. And then I left to go to Wei's place for the excel presentation, and then went home to work on simon's kids program... went to soccer, went out for dinner, and then went back to simon's to work some more. Tina called me a couple times... I couldnt hear her very well though... plus I was exhausted, so I couldn't say much. She was high on sugar and couldn't go to sleep. It was kind of funny haha. I ended up sleeping over there, not having taken a shower after soccer (gross!). woke up around 7 today,drove back home, and then started writing this. How interesting.
I screwed up simon's poster I think. I didn't do a good job. Oh well... better luck next time. I mean I am doing that for free... and it was a learning experience hehe.

Sat, 31 May 2003 06:08:58 GMT

hi! Im at tina's house! =)

Thu, 27 Mar 2003 01:13:47 GMT

I'm at school again. Im goign to bel here later than usual because this 3D animation project is due on friday morning.. so I have 2 nights to get all the editing done. I hate to give other people credit for this project because I'm feeling like they didn't do much at all. And since it's just a student project, then the Director position doesn't mean much. I mean in other projects, people who do nothing could be called a Director! Well, at least I learn lots with animation... I coudl be doing other things with my time though.
I called Carol yesterday... couldn't get a hold of her till after I talked to her on msn. Then she tells me that she's tired and that she wants to go to sleep. I dont think that she likes me much right now, but just give it some time I guess. How much do I really care though? I know that sounds mean, but it's a priority thing. I remember Simon telling me about his experience with Karmen, and how she went away to Edmonton for a long time. He would say that he missed her, but she said that she didn't. He questioned that and realized that it wasn't something bad necessarily... I mean she still likes him, but she doesn't have to be thinking about him all the time.
So not that carol and I are goign out... just that I find that She's not much of a priority right now... I have lots of things to worry about.
(man... that was a crappy example...)
Anyways, I know we're still going to be friends. And I've decided that I'm just giong to try to keep things the way they were... and try to maintain friendships, but just draw the line to know the limits.
It's strange how most of the time, all we can ever do is complain. i think I need a paradigm just like Wei's. I dont think I've ever seen him sad. I mean he missed his English provincial, and he spent the rest of the day joking around with me. I admire that so much. I wonder how he does it.
Sometimes there are friends who are going through bad times, and you want to help, but you just dont know what to do about it. Jason always has anxieties on his mind, and I just want to help him out. But it seems to gets to the point where I just dont know what to say anymore. It's just out of my league. All I can really do is give moral support. But for him, I think that he has received so much advice already... nothing that I say is really new to him. If you want to change your life, then go out and change it yourself. You can just expect words from other people to magically change everythign in your life. Soemtimes when I'm down, I just seek advice from other people, knowing that they'll say the same thing over and over again. I enjoy their bit of sympathy. But I realize that nothing that they say ever changes anything... the only time it changes is when I change my mind set, and boost my motivation to climb back up again. It's hard to change one's self. I hope that Jason can change his ways for the better, if it is for the better.

Wed, 26 Mar 2003 01:43:50 GMT

I think now it's time to decide what to do from here on in.

I'm such an asshole. Carol confronted me yesterday. She said that we are supposed to be good friends, but I dont even act like a friend. I dont call her, I dont spend any time with her. And she brought up all this stuff. This made me more than miserable... and I dont want to lose her friendship.
But I dont think people understand me... lots of them say that they do, but they never do.
Sometimes, I cherish my friendships, and sometimes I dont. When I think about myself, I dont think of the friendships that I've built over the last while. When I have to do homework, I become greedy and hope that I can just do my work instead of talking to people. THat's why I get pissed off when all these people that I've met from other countries start talking to me when I'm doing homework... I jsut want them to go away. But it doesn't mean I dont like them. If we were hanging out, then it would be fun! But when I want to work, then I just dont feel very social. I debate constantly in my mind whether to work or to socialize all the time... and so comes the event when I just ditch people sometimes. I wish that all I did was work on my things, and lived a completely independent life from people. By this I mean thatr I dont want to be entirely dependant on my social life; I wna tto control what I do. If I had a choice to either go out with friends or do some work, I wish that I would choose working... cuz what is hanging out with friends going to accomplish?? I mean I get enough social contact just by doing work...
And Carol and I are good friends. I still consider her a good friend. But we just never hang out. When we do, it's fun! But she just doesn't understand me. I mean Simon gets it... cuz he's in the same kind of situation as I am, so it's mutual. He has so much work to do that he can't hang out all the time. I havne't talked to him in about a week or so.. and it was just a short conversation (he was asking to borrow some boots). But we're still good friends. I think you know that you're friends when you can not talk to a friend in a couple years, and know that you're still friends, and that you can go back to them anytime.
Well, that's how I felt about Carol... thought it could work that way.
But now is the time to decide.. Should I just let her off as I have done to so many people who I've met? By doing this, I think it's only fair that I do so to all others who I know. And then concentrate on projects that I have going on. Or the other option, to go back to her and try to make up for all the crap she's has to go through because I haven't been a good friend.

first post in a long while

Tue, 25 Mar 2003 01:57:38 GMT

well, spring break is over. I can't really decide whether it was a waste of time or not. I accomplished something that I'm proud of, but then I didn't do any of my homework, nor did I do much that was social. Most of the time I spent right in front of my computer, not really talking to anyone, just working on my webpage. Take a look at it
http://members.shaw.ca/t1010 . I thought I wasn't going to finish it, so I gave up many times. But then I kept going back to it, and this is where it's at. I think I'm still going to work on it, just in case they haven't taken a look at it yet.
We worked on the mural at our school as well on tuesday and wednesday. (I went to school from monday to wednesday on my break!!). Well, I felt that the mural project became dominated with the opinion of mrs. Gardnner. I tried to do something and was constantly being criticized by her. To be honest, I dont want her opinions because she sucks more than I do!!!! @#$%$. I mean I can't stand looking at her stuff because it's crap... I can't believe she's so cocky about her work. As well, the entire mural is done with her final drawing of it... which, again, I think is pretty bad. But I dont relaly care about that project anymore.. I have other things to do.
Man, all the art teachers piss me off now! just want to tell them to go away and let me do my own thing.
I dont really know why I'm at school anymore... I think most of the classes are a waste of time.. I could just drop them, and just do my own work, instead of having teachers who dont know what they're doing, wasting my time. I mean I dont think I'm going to get any scholarships anymore, so that defeats the purpose of coming back for another semester as well.
3D animation project is almost done as well! yeah! Only a few more scenes. I'm glad that there have been a few people that have come in to help out(even though it's only seldomly that they've been able to help). Well the deadline for that is April 1st I think. so that's coming up soon.
I'm going to be enteringt he Teletoon scholarship. I hope that I can devote most of my time doing that. I need someone to model for me though, because I'm goign to be doing a realistic animation, just taking a film frame by frame and drawing it.

images

Sat, 15 Mar 2003 03:26:28 GMT

Pictures I thought that I would be playing with.
My mood
My brother and his mood

Sat, 15 Mar 2003 03:06:29 GMT

spring break is here! But it's not much of a break. I have to do so much work... I'm planning on not going out at all.
I'm doing my webpage, and helping my brother out with his by march 21
I'm going to do an animation by may 16. I'm going to make the drawings from real people, and then make up a character. I'm hoping this is goign to knock the other animations out of competition. I'm thinking that Wei or someone could be my model to draw them. THe plan is to film this person and then take each frame then draw. I will have no life during the time I'm working on this project.
THe 3D animation project at school is almost done! Amazingly, there are only 6 scenes left to animate. I wish that the class could have finished it last semester so I wouldn't have to waste my time working on it myself with mr shoenhals. I mean I could find other things to do than other people's work. But it's finally looking like something, like a finished product.
Watching Wei play starcraft is insane. He can build faster than I can say "doritos". Jason on the other hand, he's not very good.. haha jk. He's good, but not as good as wei.
I'm so angry at my mom right now... just bvecause she had to say one thing "you're going to be home before 11:15". She was trying to be generous by giving me an extra 15 minutes. Screw that... if she doesn't trust me that much yet, then forget her.. not listening to her. I hear her complain so much about my brother not telling her where she's going... but I understand why he doesn't tell her because he's never going to be free of her if he doesn't... she holds on too long... Forget her... going home when I want to.

Fri, 14 Mar 2003 07:08:40 GMT

I remembered to ask mr shoenhals about the teletoon animation scholarship. He referred me to luke (scottish guy) because he was just looking at the site as I was asking about it. He showed me some of the past entries, and I almost cried. It's hard to believe that someone could do the things that I saw.
http://www.teletoon.com/animation_scholarship/2003_winners.html
but I'm goign to try to win the next one... just after I finish the webpage, I'm going to spend my time working on this animation... better than any animation that I've ever made.... it can be done. Disney quality is my goal, even though wei doesn't like disney.... he says it's too simple drawing-wise.
anyways, moving isn't really what I thought it was going ot be. I tohught that I could be more indendent from my parents... take the bus home, go out with friends after school and then just walk home afterwards. but since busing is more expensive than just driving to school, I'm always geting rides to school, and back. But I guess it works out because I stay after school until almost 8 or 9 everyday now just working on my projects. Well, I gues nothing is ever how we want it to be, but we have ot make the most of it. Wei hangs out with me all the time after school, so that works out ok.
Having my friends from last year leave is sad, but I dont want it to go back to the way it was. I like the way it is now... seeing my old friends creates a problem of living 2 lives. Every now and then it's nice to spend some time with old friends, but it gets annoying having to pretend to be interested in talking to them at the moment. Even my best buddy simon, I dont really feel like talking to him that much, even though I still consider him to be really close.

Life without LJ

Fri, 14 Mar 2003 05:05:53 GMT

mood depends on location

Wed, 12 Mar 2003 01:47:20 GMT

Actually writing during the day. Not so pessimistic.
Finished my scholarship package, but then the stupid thing is that there wasn't anyone there to collect it today. so I have to go back in tomorrow.
Liegh did some weird make up on me today for her art careers project. She had to get 10 people to be her "canvas" since she wants to be a make up artist. I didn't bother washing it off. I'm going to get a copy of the pictures she took. Now I look like a bum from Europe. Cool!
Working on my webpage is good. I'm learning lots about Flash and Dreamweaver... but I'm learning the hard way. Trial and error is the only way to improve for this guy. I spent about 6 hours trying to do just the header. I hope the rest of the page is going to be the easy aspect of it. I heard jk was gonig to be entering the contest too. I didn't even know she was into webpages... or just interested in winning a computer. Man,
Check pmssblues.net . I dont know if it's been updated yet, but I redesigned the title bar. I'm guessing that Jackson didn't want other people replacing his work, so he didn't update it. But good thing I talked to Flora about it instead. She liked it, so she changed it right away. Finally! All of a sudden, I got more involved with the webteam. And ezine. I felt that it was important to finish those caricatures I did of some of the teachers at our school. However, sometimes I'm not because I tried to organize a meeting which I didn't do.
My clay horse is going to be done soon. It's due before spring break. I should be able to finish it tomorrow I'm hoping.. that's if I stay after school late, like I usually do.
THat's about my life right now. I haven't called kt in like years seemingly. Does it matter though? I would like to get to know her, but since the beginning I've never realyl talked to her... so what's my motivation to talk to her then? Duh, she's so good looking. =) haha. Well this whole thing is kind of stupid in the first place... Nora tried to set me up with her "friend". Hesitently, I declined her offer due to past events. Wei then convinced me that it would do no harm to meet her. Now it's so stupid. I feel like I'm in gr 6 again... oh man. yikes.
Wei's sitting right beside me right now.. He doesn't even know that I'm writing about him... what a stupid head! hahaah. THis is funny. Wei smells.. oh man, I need a life.
A concern that I have... who reads this? Just to know who I can diss (I can diss wei no matter what... hahah).

to do list

Tue, 11 Mar 2003 09:00:55 GMT

things to do:
animation- oddball for april 4
colouring mural for friday
drawing tutorial webpage for march 21
clay piece for friday
reunion presentation meeting, scanning on wednesday
comicbook story for the end of spring break
work out... haven't done that in a while
webteam meeting on tuesday... need ideas
filming for end of spring break
mm website. (get paid!!) for end of week?
scholarship applications have to look into it
read a book
learn how to use flash and javascript
sean's spiderman poster by friday

definition of Mark: idiot

Tue, 11 Mar 2003 08:41:55 GMT

more depressive thoughts.
I'm starting to think of myself as an idiot more and more each day.
For one thing, I forgot how to write... I had to get jason to write my personal scholarship essay for one thing. I mean h wrote that in 15 minutes, which is better than me spending 8 hours on it. Proof reading, I spent about a whole period thinking about a single line.
Talking with wei has brought up the fact that I'm an idiot as well. Wei and I talk aobut the comic book from time to time. We were discussing certain things, when it came to his attention that I'm really bad at making my points, as he did state "man, you're really bad at making your point". I've known that for quite some time, and have known that I never really make sense when I talk, or even write. Now I'll that know when people just say yes and knod their heads when I talk to them, they really dont know what I'm talking about. What an idiot.
On top of that, Jason most likely considers me as an idiot, as he brings up the example of the leadership workshop at the coq rec centre. Supposedly, I said something that made no sense, and was the laughing stock of the event without me knowing it. Another thing is that he'll casually suggest my stupidity by literally calling me stupid from time to time. I feel that he's joking, but there's often truth in some jokes. For example, after a nice dinner at my house, I went to prepare the dessert, which was a chinese grapefruit. I washed it off with soap first, and then went over to cut it up. However, I couldn't even do that without being ridiculed by a few of jason's "jokes". To follow were a few instructions on how to cut open a grapefruit, and then the finale: "you're stupid" (implicitly interpreted). There are othe examples to back this up which I've mentally recorded.
A friendship to blossom from a student-teacher relationship. Simon has always been the one who tells me what to do. I thought that we were equal buddies for first part of our friendship.... but then as I looked back and talked to him about it, I was only just a student... someone who needed help. After talking about it, he agreed that it was a mentorship... but when I asked him if he thought of it as a nuissance or what not, and the response was hesitation. He then said firmly that he found satisfaction in the mentorship... yet from memory, I can recall several times when he was just fed up with my constant request for help. He was my only friend at the time, and it's so sad to think of it as what it really was.
Carol is someone who makes me feel good when I talk to her... because she's sort of at my level. We can talk about stupid stuff, and it doesn't matter. If it doesn't make sense, then that's fine.... we both dont get it... but I know that deep down inside, she's so much higher than I am.
Everyday, I share my stupid ideas, letting more and more people know just how stupid I really am. The walls came down... everyone, just go away... I dont want to talk to you... leave me alone.

crazy words from a tired person

Mon, 10 Mar 2003 10:03:49 GMT

feeling like a bastard right now

It's so late that I wanna just go to bed, but there is something that's keeping me up right now. Most likely the fact that I have something on my mind that I want to register.
my life is doomed.
I'm so annoyed with all of my friends just as I usually am.
I feel like I want to get away from everyone, yet I'm so dependant on having friendships..it's the social part that keeps me going.
My emotions spring from the strongest muscle of my body, and are hard to tame with my mind. My mind knows that working is the best way to go about things, but then my heart needs that social aspect of life.
Now is like one of those suicidal moments, where tomorrow just doesn't seem like a possibility.
however, my brain is kicking in right now, telling me to be positive about things in life, and that I have a future to look forward to, and that I have to work hard to get where I want to go... I have a really good life, and it would be so stupid to throw that all away. Then my heart hits me again, and goes to wishing that my world were blank, and that I only had to work on the things that I wanted to work on... none of this scholarship crap, or this art careers, none of this ms. bilodeau's stupid class. And then I miss last semester, how it was almost perfect with how things were going.... no worries either. And then my mind goes blank as if it had lost the battle against my heart... it just doesn't know what to say, cat got its tongue.
I have no reason to be depressed. A good night's sleep should do the trick, and I wish that everything else just fell into place.
Why can't I be where Im heading! I can't wait.. all of this anxiety is killing me... I can't hold my breathe in the tunnel any longer.
my house is making noises right now... like cupboards closing. Its freaky... I dont know what it is... everyone else is asleep... perhaps its the people upstairs.
stop being against me.
I'll make it, just give me a couple minutes to catch my breathe.

yeah for internet!

Sun, 09 Mar 2003 02:56:06 GMT

I have internet again!
I dont know why I'm so happy about that... I actually was content with not having the luxury of internet... I wasn't so tied down by the computer, and got more work done than I usually do.
The anxiety of scholarships has come to haunt me once again. I'm late for applying to the scholarship package. I'm frantically trying to rush my application now and get reference letters. I'm also trying to rush this webpage scholarship to win a laptop computer from apple. THe deadline is on march 21, which isn't too far away from now.
So I really have to pick up the pace if I'm going to finish.
Life is becoming more and more depressing as I go through it, but that's the way life is. It seems that everything that happens is out of my hands to control... however, I can control myself and how I react to things.
My new place is really cool! I like it... the only issue that I have with it is that my mom is so paranoid about things, and the neighbours dont seem to like the fact that we have 3 vehicles and park them in front of their houses. They started to put up road blocks so that we wouldn't park there.
Supposedly I live by Hona's friend. I talked to her online while she was at her friend's place... and went to go visit them... but they didn't answer the door... so lame.
everyone is sick... dont want to get sick, so I'm going to eat 2 oranges everyday at school, and 2 oranges at home. Ingredients for a healthy life.
wei needs practice with hoola hoops.
Wei also needs to get new songs... man... he plays the same ones over and over again
I also sold my mp3 player to wei... if that's interesting. And I hope that jason can get me an md player from hk.
a dally that gets annoying... I get annoyed sometimes by the way some people I know, and who've I've talked to, made the effort to talk to them, and dont acknowledge my existence when passing by in an empty hallway. I mean it's not like we're on bad terms or anything like that.
Comic book is on! We're going to have something solid by september I'm so sure on that... but right now, we need to work out some kinks etc.
food time. till next time

no internet

Wed, 05 Mar 2003 01:08:23 GMT

well dont have internet for a while. Dont know when I'm getting it either. I think it's better to not have internet anyways.. this way, I have an excuse to go out all the time, and I'll have less distractions from my work.
Comic book is rolling now. After telling Wei that the grand prize was around 400 000 american dollars, he's more interested in it than ever. So now I have a group of 3! yeah! Setting deadlines for everything just so that we can get things done, and stay on task. Like for today, we have to have a basic idea for the plot, and a schedule planned out. We convinced the TOC for drawing painting 12 and art 12 that we could work on the comic book instead, and could count that for the course. That's so good, because most of the stuff in those classes is such a waste of time.
Not sleeping in my old house is really weird. It's like waking up somewhere else. It's taking some time adjusting to it, but I like it... actually, I like it better than my old place! It's smaller, but the rooms are more spacious. For example, I'm sharing a room with both my brothers now, but the room we have is so much bigger than all our old rooms put together. And the kitchen and living room is put together, so its just one big room. The view is really nice too. One thing that I dont like about now is that my parents want me to go to the old house after school every day to help out... I dont want to work on the old house!! It's my dad's project.... he can do it himself. sheesh.
that's it for now!

a horse of course

Sat, 01 Mar 2003 18:03:49 GMT

Man, I thought the horse that I made out of clay was one of the coolest things I've ever made. For some reason, I dont think anyone else thinks so... maybe they just see it for what it really is. It always happens to me, how I draw something really cool, and then when I look at it a day later, I notice ALL the mistakes (plural). I wish I could draw something and then like it afterwards. With all the artwork that I've done, there are barely any of them which I think are good.
I'm probably the worst soccer coach out there. I dont do anything at all. I run away from it as much as possible. The kids are ok, but they're really hard to control during practices, and they dont perform very well during games. I guess that's how things go. Today, I'm not gong to the game, because my mom said I didn't have to, so I'm just not going to go. I mean its all the way out in abbotsford, and what a waste of a day, not doing anything but stand there and say one or 2 words to the kids. Maybe I'm not setting a good example for my little brother.
I have to reorganize my work to figure out what needs to be done. I'm not as swamped with work as I was before, so at least there's some flexibility.
list (unprioritized_)
animation project - every 2nd block until it's done, and after schools
webpage
comic book - think of better story... start drawing characters again
week in the life project - plan it
move - from centennial to pinetree areas (that's what I'll be doing this entire weekend
exercise - go for run....(get off your lazy butt!)
reunion presentation - Szymon that bastard! Now it's me who has to do all the work... one man army again.... ya right johnson... group of 3 my butt
animation students from last semester piss me off so much. They can't even do anything right at all. Some of them are ok, but the rest of them just suck at animation. Marlen pisses me off so much.. they guy's a quack who cant do anything right, but still is considered one of the better animators... And therefore, is assigned more scenes. However, this guy screwed them up big time, probably did one of the worst jobs with animation I've ever seen, and still gets a really good mark. I think I got 93 or 95 in animation 12, but if marlen beat me, I'm going to go crazy I swear. It's like giving the class idiot the best marks.
i know there are other things that I have to do, but I just can't think of them
Should call kt again, but I'm not an interesting person... maybe I should just forget about it. *Need to be less self conscious.
Ok, going for a run.

Sat, 01 Mar 2003 17:42:03 GMT

Three Dumb Hunters

Three idiots decide to go hunting. The first one says he's going to get a buck. He goes out, and indeed comes back with a buck. The other two hunters ask how he did it. He says, "I see tracks. I follow tracks. I get buck."
So the second hunter says that he's going to get a doe. And he does. They ask him how he did it, and he says, "I see tracks. I follow tracks. I get doe."

So the third hunter says, "I'm just gonna shoot at anything I see."

So he goes out and comes back half a day later all beaten, bruised, bloody, and totally trashed. The other two hunters ask him what happened and he says, "I see tracks. I follow tracks. I get hit by train!"

Sat, 01 Mar 2003 07:52:49 GMT

getting farther and farther ahead in art careers! that makes me feel so good now... just a while ago, I was swamped in work. I'm really hoping that I could finish the course around spring break. THen I'll have one less thing on my mind.
I need to eat healthier. However, I've been eating so many oranges, that I think I'll never get sick with the amount of vit. C that I get.
I should learn the essential skill of using a hoola hoop
Wei needs to learn how to eat food after working out.
I want to succeed with my comic book so that I can become rich and famous... one of those "out there" kind of goals in life. Chances of actually succeeding? slim to none... but shoot for the sky, and land with the stars as my good friend Carol put it.

a stream of thought (breakin it down oh ya!)

Fri, 28 Feb 2003 03:40:55 GMT

someone has to tell me how to post images.
I'm lending my old computer to simon.
Szymon labunski didn't show up today to work on the reunion presentation... what a guy. He needs a life.
Badminton is fun, and I dont want anyone to ruin it for me
finally getting ahead with my work. I'm already finished with my art careers, and I hope that I'll be able to finish the course early. That's my goal.
I have some really nasty opinions of ms. B. She's so nice as a person, and I dont want to ruin that. But she needs lots of work as a teacher. She doesn't have what it takes, and I dont think she wants to change things the way that they are.
Wei and I are closer friends... fun times.
Jason's reflecting on life and having problems. Only if we had all the answers. But there are a few things that we can only solve on our own. Some issues just require becoming ignorant, and then the problem is solved... that's a moral question whether it's right or not to do so.
I've joined too many things that I dont have time to think about them all. I'm turning into a denise without having realized it.
I need to read more... seriously
I'm moving... I should realize it and help out more with it.
I dont want to help my dad with renovating the house.. it's his project, he can do it himself. I mean it's his dream... why does it have to be mine? but then again, he's helped me do everything that I've ever wanted to do... should I return the favor now or later?
My brother pisses the hell out of me sometimes.
My other brother, we're like brothers.. hehe. Well, I feel like I need to mentor him... I want him to grow up nicely, and succeed better than any of us. He just needs some discipline... I dont think that he listens to me that much, but then after a while, I noticed that he's changed after I look back at how he used to be. I wish I could get through to him better.
I want to be in shape, so I tihnk I should run more.
I thought that I would have time this semester to do the things that I want to do.
Mom doesn't like the idea of trying to go for a career in the comic book industry... what do I say about that??? she can bug off... I'm going for the gold... just hav eto finish everything else first.
Film class is a waste of time... full of the biggest hooligans in the entire school, and the teacher's a cranky old man. he doesn't start class till about half way through... I hate sitting there and waiting for him to stop eating fruit and tell everyone to shut up so he can do attendance. What a baffoon... (inside joke... with only myself... doh!!).
Drawing should be like breathing... work it like a muscle and be able to show it off to all the girls hahaha. Well just like muscles, you have to give them rest every now or then, or else they'll stop from growing.
thinking about getting a job... but as I told my brother, I suck at working literally.. I dont have the skills to make it in the comsumer world. That's why I want to get a drawing job now, so that I can skip all that working at mcDonalds crap.
end of stream of though_

my reasons

Thu, 27 Feb 2003 06:33:37 GMT

it's so nutty staying after school these days. I think I started a trend, because all the "cool" people stay after school now to work on projects... the only thing missing is food =). But some crazy stuff happens, and it's just a hoot =). Makes me want to stay after school again, just so I can laugh my head off one more time. But I don tthink that's going to be happening anytime soon.
Moving soon, but I barely think about it. everything is goign to change, just like everyday stuff... like going to school, rides, what I eat in the morning, my exercising habits (last I recall, I didn't have any haha). But I hope it changes for the better. I
'll get to hang out with my buddies more often, so that's a bonus for sure. And I'll be getting internet, and a phone line, so I wont be as disconnected from the world as I was predicting it to be.
Life is as exciting as we want it to be.
I figured out that the reason why I do things sometimes, is to make others think of me in a good way. Like I still play soccer and go in hard so that I can get that compliment from the coach at the end of practice... and be notoriously known as the fastest guy on the team, or the hardest working... something like that. I want to do well in school so that my parents can be proud of me when they read my report card. Those are just some examples. Sometimes I dont think about it, but that's my reason for doing some things.